Achievements unlocked in the week

Firstly, let's start off on a congratulatory note. I give myself a pat on a back for running 3 times this week! I ran for 3.6km on Sunday, credits to Jerrell! Achievement unlocked.

Another achievement of the week: Today I went for a CIP event organised by the MR house comm, which was to do house cleaning for various one-room flats in Toa Payoh Lor 7. What first struck me about the place was this sign that said 'This block needs your attention. When the emergency signal is on, please offer assistance' or something along that line. I thought to myself, "wow, I never knew there really were such needy Singaporeans congregated in one place.." The first 2 houses that we went to clean were honestly, just an illusion. On the description of the house that the I/Cs gave, the degree of focus needed were all 'average' but when we went in, there wasn't anything to do! It was really spick and span, the toiletbowl is even cleaner than the one in my house I'm not even kidding. So we were done in about half an hour. As we finished early, we were assigned to help out with the other flats - those that require 'intensive' attention. THIS was the true reflection of a filthy house. The type that you see featured on TV, the Quan Yi Feng's show, where there's a stark contrast in the before-and-after state of the house. When I first stepped in, oh Lord, the stench of cigarettes just hit me. That was not the worst, the toilet stench was extremely unbearable. The sink was clogged, the fans' blades and frames were coated with an extremely thick layer of dust I have no idea how enough wind is even produced by them to cool down the elderly. Oh and apparently 3 elderly men shared this flat... We just spammed Cif for every single corner of the house. I wiped (more like scrubbed) the walls, and the door. Oh man that was really tiring. The colour of the door was supposed to be beige, but it was so filthy it was stained a disgusting brownish yellow until we scrubbed it with lots and lots of Cif. The other volunteers had already washed the toilet - I cannot imagine its very intial state - yet it still looked revolting and just... I can't describe it in words. The floor was stained black, brown, yellow - you can imagine it. After countless rounds of toilet washing, I went in with Gisella attempting to scrub the floor and pipe stains off. It didn't work, nothing came out. Initially I was just like yolo about it, but after about 5minutes of looking at the grossness I couldn't stand it. I felt I might get sick if I stayed inside any longer so I took a breather outside. After another 10 odd minutes we were about done. Yes there were about 10+ students inside helping out that's why we could finish fast. When I came back, I had the urge to start scrubbing the yellowish parts of my house toilet as well. I'm determined to do it tomorrow morning!

I shall stop here for today.

This week, I started working at banquets again in Marina Bay Sands. I really liked the first wedding banquet I worked in! The captain was extremely nice! And I made a couple of friends at work, there was this guy named Shao Qi from VS, then I worked with Shady and Fouzy on the weekends. They're really fun people! Yes I undoubtedly screwed up at work, but well.... shit happens haha. I made Ma Lai Ko today!

Yesterday at church service we had Rev Kevin as our speaker and I went to the pulpit at the end of the service and was prayed over by the pastors. Although it wasn't a very strong feeling of someone pushing me from all the stories I heard, i felt a little tugging at the back that caused me to fall slightly backwards, but I was afraid, I really was. Afraid of what I'm not sure but i started tearing. I only pray that I have more encounters with the Holy Spirit and eventually receive the gift of tongues!

Now moving on to family matters... My father's illness is getting from bad to worse, I do feel really guilty that I still am ignoring him and not supporting him when he's about to fall... Even ah kor's helping him and being filial. I... I just can't bring myself to do it, I can't open up to my father. I don't know why, but after all these years I just don't know how to express myself anymore. Dear Lord, I just pray that You give me the strength , the ability to open up my heart to my dad, to openly pray over him. I commit my mother into Your hands as well. I pray that you give her peace, instill within her heart your spirit of healing and calmness, give her faith so that she can entrust all her worries and difficulties to you O Lord, be her pillar of support when she has no one else to turn to, Lord, grant her strength to push on. Father Lord I also want to pray for myself to be more obedient and to help her in whichever way she needs me to in order to lighten her burden. Lord I ask that in Jesus' most precious name, your power of healing come over my dad, for his illness to be cured, for peace to be restored within the household. Thank You Dear Lord, in Jesus' name, Amen.

PW is officially a past tense.

this post is one week late. GPF submission was yesteraday, 11/11/13! 05/11/13 marks the END of our OP. I love my PW group SO MUCH! It has been a great 9 months with these awesome guys and girls, the times we stayed up till 1 to rush our WR, the times we rehearsed over and over and over again our scripts in the canteen, the time we had a PW sleepover... While I'm relieved of this PW burden, I am really gonna miss spending time with these 4 awesome people! Thank you guys! Of course this calls for a celebration, which we did at KBOX but it was really really a waste of money. $25 OUCH. OUCH. OUCH. I'm not even kiddin I was really broke after that time. The following days of that week I went out with different people every single day haha. Met up with my 2 favourite people, Vanessa and Teckie!! Great catching up with these important girls in my secondary school life.

Yesterday I went back to MBS to earn some bucks again. I really need money ohmygoodness. I withdrew almost $300 from my bank in less than a month. Dear me... What should I do... Working is really tough too sighs. But as always, I make new friends at work! Worked with this cool VS guy called Shao Qi and this nice Indian girl, Shalineedevi. They were really nice people! Hope to see them around again. Okay I'm getting lazy.. Wait for my next post!

28 October 2013 - Starting off the week with a verse~

1 Peter 1:24-25

All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever.

Amen! All glory to God, the Almighty. The Lord indeed is everlasting, his words of truth apply so much and so real in our lives. Be it now, yesterday or tomorrow, all things may change - the weather, people, your finances, your health, but not God, God's love for us never wavers, God's words always holds truth. He always keeps his promises and he is always there for us. Just around each and everyone of us. Today, let us just cry out to God to seek to become intimate with him, to know that Jesus indeed is our God. Thank You Heavenly Father. God bless all blog readers this day. Amen. :D

Some home-made muffins; first baking session after promos!! Yes, you heard it, promos have finally come to a conclusion since three weeks ago. I've pretty much wasted my life away for the past three weeks though. So much for a slimming down plan right after promos.. I've only been gaining weight. Taken a liking to junk food recently, really need to go for a run tomorrow! Well, today I just want to thank God and really praise the Lord for his blessings and grace. My results were really fantastic, for me at least. Way way way above my expectations! While my As were not that high, didn't make any dean's list or whatnot, i really didn't expect to get 2 As. My GP was terribly surprising though! But I'm still going for tuition, promo results ain't everything. Indeed, Ask and You Will Be Given. Our God is Good Forever and Always <3 p="">Ooh i hear the sound of the door unlocking, seems my brother is home after 1 week in navy!! Shall end here for today. see you again in a few months' time hehe

Just a short post before the exams...

Yet another gloomy morning, waking up startled, to the sounds of the quarreling parents... In my memories there was hardly any time i could think of that was filled with genuine joyfulness in the family. The word 'Dad' has long faded from my life. What is all these i am feeling? There is no such thing as a loving family in my life. Maybe, just somewhere in the back of my memories there used to be. Now, it's all just bleak and bitter. When we have an income today, we worry if we will next week. Everday we watch as my mother's paranoia grow extensively, watch her suspecting my dad, watch her following him around... and suffering. My father's lust is just revolting, always getting caught red-handed by my mum watching pornography. And then WWIII ensues. I just cannot fathom why she is inflicting such mental torture on herself. There is obviously no more love between the two, living together is just a misery everyday. Not just her, but us too. Perhaps it's because she has no job, no financial independence nor a house for us 2 children. Regardless, I want such days to just end. My life would be so much happier living with just my mum.

Okay enough ranting. Tomorrow, 25 September. My Promos Exams officially begin. I don't exactly know what is going on with my life now. I lost all motivation to really study intensively as I did for O's. Recently everything that I studied just fades away after a few days. What exactly is causing this? Maybe it's the school. Maybe it's just JC. (Just an update: I'm currently J1 in Raffles Junior College). I'm constantly stressed out by my classmates mugging ever so fervently, and being 'hardcore' so to speak. I panic when I attempt a chemistry practice paper and am unable to solve every single question. Tomorrow's my GP paper and I am anything but prepared. Dear precious heavenly Father, do watch over me. I know that you already have plans for me, that's the comfort i keep giving myself. So dear Lord, no matter what results I get, I am giving them to you. Thank You Father. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.

WOOOWWW... it's been forever since i've updated this deadddd blog.

Firstly, I would gladly declare that EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
We got back our results today. I honestly don't know whether I'm sad or happy. Perhaps I'm happy that I've made great progress in certain subjects, but deproved in some. Shall just share my results:

English - 70
Higher Chinese - 66 :(
Biology - 74.5
Physics - 72
Chemistry - 80
Geography - 84
History + SS - 85
E.maths - 86.5
A.maths - 71.3

To be honest, I'm pretty proud of my A.maths results. I really thought I was going to flunk it! But turns out, I got method marks for many questions that I thought would have gotten a BIG FAT ZERO. But in any case, I'm disappointed in my languages. They have deproved like. GREATLY.

There's still 'O' Level Chinese on 10 November.. Hopefully it'll be better than the mock exam. Frankly I fared pretty well for the mock paper. At least for the Paper One, haven't received my Paper Two yet.

Yes, my Secondary Three life has come to an end. But there's more to come in Year 2012. Much more. December 2012 is the end of the world yeah? Even if it's not, it'd better for me...

For now, let's share with you my very eventful 2011. Mostly love life.

Okay. Starting of the year, not sure when, this guy, nicknamed D, confessed to me. I rejected him flat, then not long after, he got into a relationship with my best friend Fiona. (don't take it the wrong way, I'm not like upset or anything. Cause there's more. :P) Then not long ago, like around August/ September, another guy, this person from Sec 4, confessed to me. He's like my friend, quite a good friend, but not that close. Up till today, he still has feelings for me. I was troubled about this issue for quite a while, being in a dilemma of how i should reject him without hurting his feelings. You know, I still want to be good friends and all. I was quite cold to him for a few weeks, and apparently I felt pretty guilty over it. Just last week, I made up my mind to text him, so as to continue being friends. And yeah, i feel less awkward and disturbed. so good one!

Now. The crux of this whole love story thingy. I like someone. I've liked him since.. March? I'm not sure. Let's call him C. I started texting C since February or so. All's been peaceful since then, just some ups and downs, and for a period of time we didn't talk to each other, or text, for that matter. During August/ September, I suddenly realised that I liked him more than I thought I did. And I found out that he actually likes me too! I was really happy. Really. But sadly, we can't be in a relationship cause of parents. We started talking to each other. When we didn't even speak in the past. We used to only wave and smile. It's some progress, I must admit. But now, I've been constantly waiting for him to text me. I just don't want to take the initiative. I don't want him to think I'm despo, or to take me for granted. But the thing is, I really miss him! I do I do! :( sigh.

Okay, that's all I'll share today.

Now more exciting was yesterday. We organised a surprise birthday for MR KHOO! we made him a scrapbook and bought him a cake and everything. He was sooo touched that he actually cried! Wow. That's like. I have nothing to say but WOW. MR KHOO's SO NICE.