Just a short post before the exams...

Yet another gloomy morning, waking up startled, to the sounds of the quarreling parents... In my memories there was hardly any time i could think of that was filled with genuine joyfulness in the family. The word 'Dad' has long faded from my life. What is all these i am feeling? There is no such thing as a loving family in my life. Maybe, just somewhere in the back of my memories there used to be. Now, it's all just bleak and bitter. When we have an income today, we worry if we will next week. Everday we watch as my mother's paranoia grow extensively, watch her suspecting my dad, watch her following him around... and suffering. My father's lust is just revolting, always getting caught red-handed by my mum watching pornography. And then WWIII ensues. I just cannot fathom why she is inflicting such mental torture on herself. There is obviously no more love between the two, living together is just a misery everyday. Not just her, but us too. Perhaps it's because she has no job, no financial independence nor a house for us 2 children. Regardless, I want such days to just end. My life would be so much happier living with just my mum.

Okay enough ranting. Tomorrow, 25 September. My Promos Exams officially begin. I don't exactly know what is going on with my life now. I lost all motivation to really study intensively as I did for O's. Recently everything that I studied just fades away after a few days. What exactly is causing this? Maybe it's the school. Maybe it's just JC. (Just an update: I'm currently J1 in Raffles Junior College). I'm constantly stressed out by my classmates mugging ever so fervently, and being 'hardcore' so to speak. I panic when I attempt a chemistry practice paper and am unable to solve every single question. Tomorrow's my GP paper and I am anything but prepared. Dear precious heavenly Father, do watch over me. I know that you already have plans for me, that's the comfort i keep giving myself. So dear Lord, no matter what results I get, I am giving them to you. Thank You Father. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.

WOOOWWW... it's been forever since i've updated this deadddd blog.

Firstly, I would gladly declare that EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
We got back our results today. I honestly don't know whether I'm sad or happy. Perhaps I'm happy that I've made great progress in certain subjects, but deproved in some. Shall just share my results:

English - 70
Higher Chinese - 66 :(
Biology - 74.5
Physics - 72
Chemistry - 80
Geography - 84
History + SS - 85
E.maths - 86.5
A.maths - 71.3

To be honest, I'm pretty proud of my A.maths results. I really thought I was going to flunk it! But turns out, I got method marks for many questions that I thought would have gotten a BIG FAT ZERO. But in any case, I'm disappointed in my languages. They have deproved like. GREATLY.

There's still 'O' Level Chinese on 10 November.. Hopefully it'll be better than the mock exam. Frankly I fared pretty well for the mock paper. At least for the Paper One, haven't received my Paper Two yet.

Yes, my Secondary Three life has come to an end. But there's more to come in Year 2012. Much more. December 2012 is the end of the world yeah? Even if it's not, it'd better for me...

For now, let's share with you my very eventful 2011. Mostly love life.

Okay. Starting of the year, not sure when, this guy, nicknamed D, confessed to me. I rejected him flat, then not long after, he got into a relationship with my best friend Fiona. (don't take it the wrong way, I'm not like upset or anything. Cause there's more. :P) Then not long ago, like around August/ September, another guy, this person from Sec 4, confessed to me. He's like my friend, quite a good friend, but not that close. Up till today, he still has feelings for me. I was troubled about this issue for quite a while, being in a dilemma of how i should reject him without hurting his feelings. You know, I still want to be good friends and all. I was quite cold to him for a few weeks, and apparently I felt pretty guilty over it. Just last week, I made up my mind to text him, so as to continue being friends. And yeah, i feel less awkward and disturbed. so good one!

Now. The crux of this whole love story thingy. I like someone. I've liked him since.. March? I'm not sure. Let's call him C. I started texting C since February or so. All's been peaceful since then, just some ups and downs, and for a period of time we didn't talk to each other, or text, for that matter. During August/ September, I suddenly realised that I liked him more than I thought I did. And I found out that he actually likes me too! I was really happy. Really. But sadly, we can't be in a relationship cause of parents. We started talking to each other. When we didn't even speak in the past. We used to only wave and smile. It's some progress, I must admit. But now, I've been constantly waiting for him to text me. I just don't want to take the initiative. I don't want him to think I'm despo, or to take me for granted. But the thing is, I really miss him! I do I do! :( sigh.

Okay, that's all I'll share today.

Now more exciting was yesterday. We organised a surprise birthday for MR KHOO! we made him a scrapbook and bought him a cake and everything. He was sooo touched that he actually cried! Wow. That's like. I have nothing to say but WOW. MR KHOO's SO NICE.

WOW it's been forever since my last post...
some updates on my life..

just finished CA1 yesterday! got back some of the results.. luckily didnt fail my physics. omg, i got full marks for Amaths. that was damn tyco~. ohman i do not like ------------------------- as my ---------------------- teacher. please please jus change the teacher... change teaching method no use one. we see --------------------------------------- face cnt study alr liaooooo...:(:(

recently.... i think i might have fallen for someone. we've known each other for a very short time though.. but, well.... sometimes, life is unpredictable. ohmyohmy, i really dunno what to expect. i've jus gotten his number a few days back. we've texted for a while... but i rly dunno what to expect outta our conversation. sigh. this feeling is so nostalgic..

3 weeks of school has passed. Its a new beginning, alright.

New class, new friends, new teachers, new subjects(more)... Up till now i've adapted to sec 3 life relatively well.
Although i must say it is pretty stressful. Homeworks are never ending.. Now i only watch about 1 hour of TV per day. At times i don't even peek at it! i am pretty content with myself. :)
The only "slack" period of the whole week is PE! :D already had 2 lessons. took height and weight just this Wednesday. I didn't grow at all. -.- 158cm! but i did lose some weight! From..... lets say....... i think 49.6 kg? to 48.9kg! :D almost a kilogram!!heheh. If i continue to work out in the gym, i might drop to 48kg very soon! My target for this year is.. 48kg. HAHAHA.:D 48 should be okay ler:)

Performed in CCA open house last Saturday:) Xiang Qing. :) hahaha

well, i have tons of homework to do, so i shall end here for now. :)
12 more days to CNY!!

1 hour, 40 minutes to go.. To a new year, a new start, a new challenge ahead! 2011 marks the start of my upper sec life.. Which means? yes! O's are nearing!!! D: sigh.. 2010 sure has been an eventful year.. I must say, VERY eventful. For one, (i'm gonna say it since its a private blog), i got into trouble with the discipline committee over the Andris issue.. :( n had to do dc. i sure regretted that... And i still feel apologetic over it cause i got Vanessa and Fiona into trouble as well. :( sure cried buckets then... in fact, this year is one year i've shed so much tears. Most of it shed over dramas. :) well, and also, i fell ill quite a lot this year. Started in the beginning of the year which puked in class.-.- then the chingay thing. N then i cried cuz Mr... (omg, ii forgot his name.) OH! Leong? aiya. watever. he told me i failed my 3rd try at 2.4 when i did. i was so shocked i started crying. in front of everyone. -.- Then... there was... when i pulled a muscle the same day during dance. N then there was once when i fell on my butt hard during the in-line skating. i teared a little. cuz it was tooo painful.

also, 2010 - one year that my results had such great differences. ca1, maths C5, Sa2, A1. 0.0 lol. But i must say, i do do do love my class so much! Miss thor has been a great form teacher, Mr Cumming, Mr Yong, Mr Fadz, MR Ng.... all the great teachers taught 2/2 in 2010!!! i hope 3/1 will get such wonderful teachers again... :P n also, i had some relationship issues this year. :X n then i started going boy-crazy. 0.o Mr Foo! HAHA. Show Luo, Kim Hyun Joong again! muahaha.

2011? the following are my expectations and resolutions..

1. Not fail my first few tests to miserably
2. try to pass all my subjects.. 9 of them. -.-
3. 2nd semester, get at least A2s...
4. get A1 for O' level chinese!!! :S
5. not gain any more kilos!!!!! (maintain at 50kg)
6. not get distracted over infatuations anymore.
7. save money!!
8. one more!!! - pass my 2.4!!!!!!!

u know? i never succeed to accomplish all those resolutions. so i shall make it vague. :)

well, thats all. :) guys, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! may 2011 be an awesome year for you guys!

Hey guys, it's been a long time since I have updated this blog, guess its due to the fact that these few days of the holidasy i've been constantly on youtube, facebook, TV, anything but blogger. From next year on, I'll treat this as my special space for language training! :D

Currently 5:44, tuning in to 100% entertainment! Today its hao you yin yue hui, with guests starring.......... SHOW & LUO MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOAH! Its really thrilling and entertaining! You guys should watch it, if i can find the vid on youtube i'll upload it here:) i love SHOW FOREVER! <3

I haven't been overseas this holiday.. I'm extremely jealous of those who went to Taiwan.. WHICH IS A WHOLE BUNCH. T.T I WANNA GO~~~!! and when i do, i'm gonna stay for perhaps a month? and go to yu le bai fen bai if i can. :) i hope it'll be soon. but the most suitable time would be after my O's. :D i LIKE~!

sigh, this christmas is soooo boring!!!!!!

CURRENTLY OBSESSED WITH PLAYFUL KISS. KIM HYUN JOONG!!!!!! aka BAEK SEUNG JO <3 OH HA NI! ^^ ^^

Hey babes~ :) came back from chalet yesterday. It wasn't actually a chalet, more like an outing. LOL.
Okay, i met Fiona at 11am at AMKhub, then we went to walk around and eat lunch.
I was planning to meet Dennis to ask abt job vacancies. But in the end he had muscle strains so his parents won't let him go out. :(
Then at around 1130, we met Rui Ting to get my books. :) She wear till damn chio! >.< haha. oh well.
Then we went to Sumo House to eat.
After that we spent about an hour fretting over the 'having to pay the full price of the chalet despite not staying and not eating.' issue. so was like damn sad for awhile.
After that we went to buy Fiona's screen protector. At first it was $12. Then cuz the 'normal' protector no stock, the guy offered it at $10. Then the magnificent Fiona, said 'Can $9?' Then after a minute of negotiating, SHE GOT IT AT $9!!!!! WAH! :D FIONA THE FLOWERGIRL. :) NICE ONE. <3
After that we jiu go to KFC to ask about the job vacancies. We talked to the manager. :) WAHHH, was damn scared at first. but the manager is very nice. ^^ But guess what? There were no vacancies at all. But even if there were, it would be useless. I cannot work. He said that its against the law to work before I'm 14, which is past-birthday-that-14. LOL. WHY AM I BORN SO LATE. T.T

oh well.

after that we went to FairPrice Xtra to buy stuff to bring there. OMG, guess who i saw??? GUESS GUESS GUESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yup, Fiona was the eyewitness. Aaron!!!! OMG, it was really really too coincidental to be true! haha.

Then we went to the chalet. Took MRT from amk to bishan, then from bishan to paya lebar, then to Tampines. Then sit 29 to Aloha Changi. We were like 2 hours late. Cuz we got lost. we dunno whr the chalet was. LOL. Then finally, Rainer came to our rescue! Haha. We went in, and thr were like only 8 ppl. -.- seriously, 也太少了吧！There were only Rainer, Marcus, Tzen Ein, Danielle, Andris, Haige, Yu Xiang and Nhien thr. 0.0 but actually it wasnt very fun. we went in then check out the rooms and all, then went to the beach. There, the guys started to rip a coconut open. n then we took many photos. then we went to eat. They ate subway, i juz ate my chips. LOL.

Then.. we went back to the chalet and played 大老二. They had cup noodles as stakes. o.o LOL. i kept losing. So i decided not to play anymore. I went to mop the floor. lala. then i wrote the cards and gave them to everyone. sigh. Rainer started performing magic. ^^ n then, we went off at 8.30. FIONA! :D

it was not very fun. but oh well, if Rainer and Marcus weren't there, I would have died of boredom. LOL.

hmm, okay, anything new? ermmmm......................................................................................................................................
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oh yeah. i played with fifi's phone. ^^ SO FUN. n i owe her 10 bucks.

OH DAMN. TODAY GOT TUITION. WTH. -.-